Jill Weatherholt

Writing Stories of Love, Faith and Happy Endings While Enjoying the Journey

This is Only a Test ~ Part 1


hotDreams are today’s answers to tomorrow’s questions. ~ Edgar Cayce

During my college years, I suffered from test anxiety. No matter how much I studied and felt prepared, the moment the test was placed in front of me, my hands began to sweat, my heart raced and my mind would temporarily go blank. Thankfully, after a few moments of some heavy breathing and reading over the questions, I was usually able to relax and move forward.

The anxiety from many years ago still haunts me today in my dreams, which did not begin until years after graduation. At least once or twice a month, I dream I am back in college. I discover there is a test that I am not prepared to take because I have not been to class in several weeks. The dream varies. Sometimes I do not know there is a test because I forgot I was registered for the class. Another version, I find myself wandering the halls because I cannot remember where my classroom is located.

Those of you who have experienced a dream similar to this know the stress and anxiety you feel when you wake up. The panic state that invaded my dream is with me in the first moments I awake. It almost feels I’ve lost my sense of time and where I am in life.  The feeling fades, but I am left wondering why I have this recurring dream.

The reasons for our dreams have always been of interest to me. I majored in Psychology however; my coursework did not cover much on dreams and their interpretations. Recently I had this dream again, so I decided to do some research on the topic. To my surprise, this is a very common dream and the reasons behind it did not surprise me in the least.

Although there were numerous interpretations such as; the end of something significant in your life and there is low confidence about the future. Another suggested it is a time of regret of past actions or inaction that prompt one not to put off something until tomorrow, that can be done today. These were logical, but I did not feel they applied to my dream. Then I came across an interpretation that resonated with me and I knew I had discovered the reason for my recurring dream.


Author: Jill Weatherholt

My name is Jill Weatherholt and I’m a writer. I have a full-time job, but at night and on the weekend, I pursue my passion, writing. I write modern stories about love, friendship and forgiveness. I started this blog as a way to share my journey toward publication and to create a community for other new writers. Raised in the Washington, DC area, I’ve lived in Charlotte, North Carolina since 2004. I hold a degree in Psychology from George Mason University and a Certification in Paralegal Studies from Duke University. My first book, SECOND CHANCE ROMANCE, published by Harlequin Love Inspired released on February 21, 2017 and is available on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.com. I was the first place winner in the Dream Quest One Short Story Contest in the Winter 2014-2015 competition. In 2014, I placed second in Southern Writers Magazine Short Story Contest. I was also a top ten finalist in Southern Writers Magazine Short Story Contest in 2012 and 2013. I’m a 2010 and 2012 winner of the NaNoWriMo Contest. I love to connect readers, visit me at jillweatherholt.com

24 thoughts on “This is Only a Test ~ Part 1

  1. I have these dreams, too! I’ve never researched it, although I probably should have because having them always made me feel a little bit “crazy”. And it was so strange that they happened such a long time after school was done. It makes me feel better to know these types of dreams are common. Not that I want others to have this panic, but it helps to know I’m not alone.


    • No, you certainly are not alone.:) I didn’t come across any reach that explained why the dreams start so many years later, but I did read the dream is more common in college graduates than high school graduates.


  2. I spend a lot of time trying to figure out my dreams. For the most part, I can see what they symbolize….but I still have some really strange ones I am trying to figure out!


  3. I used to have similar dreams. I’m in a mall and can’t find the exit, or I’m late to an appointment, but can’t find my way. After I realized what the dreams meant, they stopped.


  4. Interesting. In my recurring “back in college” dream, there’s about a week left in the semester and I suddenly realize I have forgotten to go to a certain class the whole time. I won’t be able to graduate if I don’t pass. Then I run around in a panic trying to find the room and the professor, to no avail of course, because it’s dream and the professor doesn’t exist, so I have no mental point of reference.

    The funny thing is, in real life, I am very organized mentally (you won’t catch me returning a library book a day late, much less forgetting to go to class). I’m also not inclined toward panic. I wonder if the dream is inspired by some hidden anxiety that I suppress to maintain my “in control” exterior.

    Analyze me, Dr. Weatherholt.


    • You’re so funny…”Dr. Weatherholt.” Well, I didn’t get my PhD in Psychology, so I’m not sure I can make a diagnosis. Even if I did, with you, I would need further study. 🙂 I’ve had the same dream that you’ve had. It’s funny because the dream always seems to vary.


      • My other recurring dream involves a store I worked in ages ago. About once every couple of months I either dream that I am hours late for work or that I can’t figure out how to make the cash register operate. I’ve had plenty of jobs since then, but that is the only one that ever haunts me in my sleep.

        Wait, you’re not charging me for this therapy session, are you?


  5. I’ve dreamt the same variations on the theme! Interesting–thanks for sharing. 🙂


  6. I like your blog and your writing style. 🙂 If everyone wrote like you, the world would be a lot less confusing.


  7. Jill, like you, I never had this dream until years after college. I always attributed it to stress at work.
    I’ll be interested to hear your Part II!


  8. I’m looking forward to part two. 🙂

    My husband and daughters often complain of having university-related dreams, most of them about not attending a class all term, then finding themselves at the final, with no idea what’s happening, blah…


  9. I love discussing dreams. Some of mine are so incredibly bizarre I have based my books on them! 😀


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