Jill Weatherholt

Writing Stories of Love, Faith and Happy Endings While Enjoying the Journey

I Just Want to Write

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I’ve spent the past week outlining my NaNoWriMo story and in complete misery. I’ve never spent so much time staring at a blank piece of paper or watching a cursor blink in my entire writing journey. The ideas are slow and I question why I’ve attempted something that is against my nature.

Despite the agony, I realize the reason I enjoy writing posts for my blog. I don’t have to define the internal and external goals of characters or make sure that each scene advances the plot point ~ I can just write. Ideas fill my head when I’m not trying create a road map for my words.

Outlining has made me question my ability and question why I’m participating in NaNoWriMo. One month ago I was looking forward to November with excitement, now I feel dread. My attempts to get the ticking clock out of my head have failed. I’m unable to stay focused and continually pop out of my chair to get more tea or clean something.

However, I will continue to press on until the start of NaNoWriMo and try to believe the outline will be worth the agony. I’m hopeful these prepaid struggles will make reaching my daily word count a little easier. If not, I’ll go back to my panster ways and enjoy writing again.

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Author: Jill Weatherholt

My name is Jill Weatherholt and I’m a writer. I have a full-time job, but at night and on the weekend, I pursue my passion, writing. I write modern stories about love, friendship and forgiveness. I started this blog as a way to share my journey toward publication and to create a community for other new writers. Raised in the Washington, DC area, I’ve lived in Charlotte, North Carolina since 2004. I hold a degree in Psychology from George Mason University and a Certification in Paralegal Studies from Duke University. My first book, SECOND CHANCE ROMANCE, published by Harlequin Love Inspired released on February 21, 2017 and is available on Amazon and Barnes and Noble.com. I was the first place winner in the Dream Quest One Short Story Contest in the Winter 2014-2015 competition. In 2014, I placed second in Southern Writers Magazine Short Story Contest. I was also a top ten finalist in Southern Writers Magazine Short Story Contest in 2012 and 2013. I’m a 2010 and 2012 winner of the NaNoWriMo Contest. I love to connect readers, visit me at jillweatherholt.com

23 thoughts on “I Just Want to Write

  1. I thought I’d just leave some encouragement and some advice. Writing has two hats: the analytical mind that wonders why a character did something or didn’t and the creative one that just writes as things come to mind. It sounds to me as if you need to leave the analytical hat at home until nanowrimo is over.

    Many writers write, finish stories, even get published, without very much of an outline of plan. Some do it without one at all! The only difference is that these writers put more into the edit and rewrite than the more fastidious writers that take longer to write a sentence or paragraph. Or, these writers plan for years before setting pen to paper. Why not just try winging it? That way may suit you best? After all, not thinking about the implications of what you write will stop you worrying if it’s good or not until it’s finished.

    Just my two cents :).

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    • Your two cents as well as your encouragement is appreciated. I completely agree my analytical mind is causing my creative mind to hide like a frightened turtle. I did “wing it” during my first participation in NaNo and I was able to reach the 50k word goal. This year, I decided to try NaNo with an outline, but so far it’s done nothing but frustrate me. Thank you so much for your advice!

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      • No problem. 🙂 I think, if something isn’t working, then scratch it and stick with what works. I mean, what’s the point in writing if you’re not enjoying it?

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  2. I’m going to quote your own words to you:

    “I don’t have to define the internal and external goals of characters or make sure that each scene advances the plot point ~ I can just write.”

    Try that with your NaNoWriMo project! It’ll probably be far less dreadful and you may surprise yourself how good it turns out.

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  3. I’ve planned mine thoroughly and now I feel like if I plan anymore I will just grow to hate the story before I even begin to write it. So close to the start I am itching to go.

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  4. Try your best to keep your butt in the chair. Good luck with your 30 day journey that is National Novel Writing Month!

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  5. I have the same dread about NaNoWriMo. I sign up every year, but then I never start. Hang in there!

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  6. When I can’t outline, even just a rough collection of songs to guide me, I know it’s time to reassess. If it’s not fun, not feeling right, something needs a change. I’ve pantsed some novels with barely an idea of characters names; it’s great to have a strong grasp of the story, etc, but sometimes the magic occurs when we’re not looking.

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  7. Some folks already mentioned it here, the goal of NaNo is to pull 50,000 words out of your head and place them on paper. The journey it takes, does not matter. Outlines help some, while others like to fly by the seat of their pants. Find your groove and stick with it.

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  8. I’m sorry you’ve been having such a tough time with it! I definitely think going back to your pantser ways is probably best. It’s funny how it works so differently for everyone! By contrast, I’ve been finding it really liberating to be writing an outline, I think it gives me more confidence.

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  9. I tried NaNaWriMo last year, and failed miserably. Life just seems to get in the way.

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  10. I’m someone who loves to write out an outline before nanowrimo, but that’s mainly because I’m so excited about an idea I can barely wait for November to start working on it. My sister on the other hand, never works from an outline. We wrote a story together and I swear it was her goal to take us as far away from my outline as possible. 😉

    Good luck with your nano novel! I’m sure if you just remember to have fun with it, it will all work out just fine.

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